~ i wanna be forever ~

hey.. my name is ida adora asha'ari ismail.. yes i do have a long name.. dont know why.. but i reckon its kinda cool.. i can be all.. ida.. adora.. or asha'ari.. but than again i wouldnt want to be asha'ari seeing that it will remind me of being my grandfather.. i am a person too difficult to describe.. i may look like the bubbly happy person on the outside but not many people can tell what i really am.. how i really feel.. i like it that way.. people just cant describe me.. everyone has their own opinion.. and i do respect every one of it.. i am often very honest which wouldnt satisfy everyone.. i love making new friends.. but my old ones are the best.. i do lead a simple life and i do love shopping.. i often see things through my lenses.. which you might be able to tell with the amount of pictures i have around.. and i think i dont have much to say.. so yeah.. owhhh ya.. i love my nenekssss cooking.. they are so yummy.. love them all.. my fantastic cousins are d vogue vogue and my sisters are the boom.. my mum is the best and my dad is the darling.. my nephew and nieces are the cutest.. my bestfriends are my life.. my laughter is what keeps you entertained.. :D here is my blog to keep you entertained with my very

entertaining life.. :) and to those whom are jealous of it.. just back of and go look for one of your own :D

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

merasa sisamu


its confusing..

confusing because the fact that i love you but i am not suppose to..

one day you make me smile only by seeing you smile..

but the next day i see myself crying only because you're not there with me..

i hate the fact that i'm here putting up a fake smile just so that you won't see me bleeding inside..

i may tell myself that i do not love you but all i'm doing is lying to myself..

i am confuse..

confuse whether or not i should continue loving you or not..

i wish you would just tell me your feelings ftowards me..

so that i could stop lying to myself..

confusing..

the smile you put on your face makes me giggle..

the hugs you give me makes me melt..

the jokes you put up makes me laugh even if i am the only one laughing..

but..

i will not go up telling you that i love you..

but i just..wish you would..

why is it when these eyes shut its you i see smiling at me..?

why is it you that i think of day and night..?

why is it you that i fell in love with..?

confused as i am..

baby i still love you and this love isnt going anywhere..

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