so i just arrived home after spending more than a week in DUBAI and LONDON, fiona comes up with a piece of paper which contains the result of my australia accessment examination. for those who do not know, i will be leaving for australia next year. i am in a situation where my life does not have any bright light shining in it. i am person who never likes to say goodbye. so maybe god have given and shown me many signs of me leaving without hurting anyone.
a guy. a guy who i have laid most of my love to now is no longer there. i don't know why but i just can't stop thinking about him. i thought a trip overseas would help but it makes me miss him even more. i can't help the fact that you left me alone here waiting without saying goodbye. maybe just a simple explanation would do. it would answer the million questions i have stuck here in my head. but after months, i slowly understand that i will leave you one day to go further up studies in australia and i just cant say goodbye. so maybe now i wouldn't have to. but dont think that there has been even a second in the day that i dont think about you. i LOVE you.
friends. close loving ones. slowly apart. maybe those love ones around me may not realise how far apart we are now. as i write all this i cry to find myself in this situatiion. at my age i should out having fun. not stuck in a room thinking about others. yeah i think everyone realise that i havent been in school maybe its just cause i want you all to get use to not having me around. eventhough at times i think you dont really care. i love you all. you are the roots that hold my life. you are the ice that cools me down. and its hard for me.
i love you all more than anything in this world. so i'm only asking you all not to forget me when i'm not there. cheers. if you read this don't feel sad please. just a smile would be great.
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